This is fiction

I cannot express enough that every story I write and post is a work of fiction. Nothing is based on me, or anyone I know. Some of my stories are motivated by my dreams or random ideas I may have, but that's about as personal as it gets! Please enjoy :-)

Sunday 28 June 2015

Good-bye Ben

Ben looked so peaceful. Yes his skin was pale, his fine blond hair, thin and mattered. But he still had one or two freckles on his nose, which somehow represented happier times. The sweat beads had disappeared from his forehead. He was still; no longer groaning in pain. He was better off, that Belinda was certain of.

In fact, if someone wasn’t doing that well, it was Belinda. Over the last few months, she’d gone from being a happy, beautiful mommy with bouncy four year old boy, to a weathered woman trying to find a way to mother a dying child.

As Belinda held little Ben’s cold hand, she started to feel the weight of the world lift off of her shoulders.  She knew that the hard times were far from over; she’d have to face the law for what she’d done. But knowing that Ben no longer suffered, knowing her little angel was finally pain free... was all worth it. A little thought which would try to surface, which Belinda kept stuffing back down again, was the idea that Belinda was finally free of this heavy responsibility. It wasn’t a thought that Belinda was willing to face. She had done it to help her boy, not herself.

Belinda pressed the buzzer to summon the nurse. She got up, kissed Ben’s forehead, whispered good-bye and went to wait by the door.  When the nurse arrived, she took one look at Belinda and she knew. She rushed over to Ben’s bed, checked the machines, checked for his vitals, but it was too late, Ben was gone. Belinda didn’t say a word. Tears started to run down her cheeks. The hot tears kept pooling up in her eyes, blocking her vision and then spilling over onto her cheeks. It was the sensation of warmth in her face that distracted her from the chaos around her. She hadn’t felt warmth in months.

Belinda had somehow been shifted out of the room and into the passage, but she overheard something that seemed to shock her right out of her comatose state;  she heard nurse Jackie talking to one of the doctors that was attending to Ben;  ”I don’t understand it, this afternoon Doctor Jonson said that Ben was getting better. He said that there was hope for a full recovery. It’s just as well that he wanted to tell Ms Jean himself. Can you imagine if we’d given her hope and then just hours later, he died?”

Belinda went ice cold. She felt sick to her stomach. She could not believe what she had done. Suddenly she couldn’t understand why she did it in the first place. Panic started to set in, knotted and twisted with grief, striking over and over again like bolts of lighting, each one hitting harder, bringing to life one shocking revelation after the next; she did it for herself, she thought. She did it because it hurt HER to see him suffer like that. She did it because she couldn’t bear to hear him ask again; “Mommy, make it stop?” The burden was too much to carry. The agony had ruined her life. She just wanted it to be over with so that she could move on and live a normal life again. She had convinced herself that it was the right thing to do. She had convinced herself that it was her place to end his suffering. She had convinced herself that it was quite okay... to murder... because she found a way to justify it... but who made Belinda God?  

This story was motivated by an article I had to read for my studies. Considering my lecturer’s views, I thought a different perspective might be in order.


Click here to read the article. 

Sunday 18 January 2015

The Hijacking

Zero five hundred hours. It was time. In a matter of minutes, a white BMW X5 would come down this way, as it did yesterday, and every morning before that. Jacob had been promised twenty thousand rand in cash for such a car. It was the highest offer he had received for a car yet.

The BMW came into view up the road. As it neared, Jacob and his two partners readied themselves. The BMW stopped at the stop street. The men pulled out of the bush with their car and stopped in front of the BMW, blocking it off from passing through the intersection. Jacob hopped out of the passenger side. He looked through the windscreen into the face of a terrified woman. She was young, pretty and from a different social class. A woman like her would never look twice at man like him. She’d look down on him. Ignore his presence. Grip her bag tightly and quicken her step, like he was some filthy, thieving sickness that needed to be avoided at all costs. All at once, he was filled with anger and resentment. What made this woman better than him? What made her think that he were any less human?

Jacob came round the car and opened the driver’s door. He grabbed the woman by the arm and attempted to yank her out of the car, only her seat-belt was buckled which prevented him from getting her out quick enough. A set of lights could be seen coming up the road. Without thinking twice, Jacob got into the back seat and put a gun to the woman’s head; “follow the car”.

The car that Jacob and his colleagues were driving moved out of the way and started to drive down the road. The woman, moaning in fear, did as Jacob said and followed.

They finally reached an industrial area. They pulled into a warehouse that appeared to be abandoned from the outside. It was dark inside. Jacob ordered the woman to stop, turn the car off, and get out. He could see that the poor woman was petrified. Her fear angered him. It was a clear indication of her discrimination toward him. He was sick and tired of being treated like the scum of the earth by these rich bitches. He was sick and tired of feeling like a second class citizen in his own damn country.
Jacob handed the lady over to his two colleagues. 

He disappeared into the darkness. He was going to meet the man and collect payment. Jacob returned from the darkness after about a half an hour. He was pissed off, and the look on his face made the woman whimper. Out of shear frustration and anger, Jacob backhanded the woman; “give me a reason” he threatened.

He was angry because the twenty thousand rand that he was promised had turned into ten thousand rand. He’d promised his colleagues each two thousand rand, but that was when he was expecting to keep sixteen thousand rand for himself. Now he was getting six! Jacob grabbed the woman and threw her into the trunk of their car. He ordered the guys to get him, before spinning away.

Jacob’s colleagues were in the dark about the money. They only knew what they were getting so they were dead happy. They stopped at the shebeen to celebrate their earnings. Jacob drank more than the other two. He had more money to splash on beer also, he was feeling really angry and was looking for a release. By noon, the trio had to be kicked out for being disorderly. They got into their car and drove to a liquor store to buy more beer, before going to an abandoned plot to drink it.

After a good few beers at the plot, one of the men waltzed into the house with the kidnapped woman. She’d been in the trunk the entire time. She was scared and dehydrated. Jacob relived his colleague of the woman and forced her to have a seat next to him. Again he could feel the anger rise up in him; she was trembling with fear, tears welling up in her eyes and begging him for mercy. Mercy? He thought. He hadn't even done anything to her that could warrant her plea for mercy. Just then and there Jacob decided to show this rich bitch who was boss around here. He grabbed a fist full of blonde hair and started dragging her down the passageway. She was kicking and screaming, protesting to the fullest. Jacob’s colleagues laughed at the silly little woman and made a point of letting Jacob know that it would be their turn next.

Jacob threw the woman onto a rotten mattress in one of the rooms. She was not ignorant and knew exactly what was coming. Jacob took the last gulp of beer and then smashed the end of the bottle on the wall. He knelt down, grabbed her hair again, this time with his left hand, while using his right to shove the edge of the glass bottle into her throat; “Now I show you” he said. Jacob placed the bottle at the side of her head, keeping it within reach so that he could continue to strike fear into the woman as a source of control. He started to remove her pants. They were a formal pair of work pants; black with a fine white pin stripe. He noted the quality of the fabric and started to mentally calculate how much the pants must have cost, and if he could resell it, when he suddenly saw a blinding white light.

Carol wasn't about to be raped. She would rather die than be violated like this. She had grabbed the beer bottle with her left hand and hit Jacob on the temple with it as hard as she possibly could. He fell over, but she could see that he wasn't completely unconscious. She had seconds to get out of there. She jumped up, pants dangling round her ankles. After a split second to calculate how much time she had to get out alive, she decided to step out of the pants and climb through the window bear bottomed. The window was broken and filthy. She jumped right through it. A shard of glass hooked into her thigh, but she didn't care. Carol started to run through the veld as fast as her legs could carry her. She could hear Jacob screaming from the house. They were going to come after her, and then who knew what they would do. Carol was running toward the house next door. It too appeared to be abandoned, but she had nowhere else to go.

When Carol got to the house, she banged on the front door. Before giving anyone a chance to respond, she opened the door and let herself in. By now it was late afternoon. Through the yellowish orange afternoon light shining in, Carol could see that the old farm house was abandoned. There were a few rusted items on the kitchen floor though and one of the items was a garden pick. Carol grabbed the pick and ran deeper into the house to find a place to hide. 

One of the rooms had a lot of abandoned items in it; some rotten furniture, a piss soaked mattress, a few empty cans of food, faeces on a newspaper in the corner and a lot of maggots on a pile of wet flattened boxes. Carol lifted the maggot infested boxes and climbed under.

Within seconds the trio had invaded the house. Carol could hear them shouting and searching through the rooms. Someone entered the room that she was in and opened the cupboards. When he found nothing he moved on. It felt like a lifetime. The men knew for a fact that she was in the house and continued to search till sunset. They had been in and out of the room that she was in a dozen times. They had thrown the items out of the cupboard, lifted the mattress and flung the rotten furniture around. To her amazement, they never once looked under the pile of soggy boxes.

Darkness started to consume the house. Silence too descended. None the less, Carol decided to stay put. It wasn't until she could feel the maggots wriggling inside her shirt that she decided that she couldn't take it anymore and got up.

Shrieking in disgust, Carol jumped around till she was satisfied that she was maggot free. Just then, the sound of rustling caught her attention. She was not alone. They had not left the house. She bent down and reached for the pick. Carol then stood behind the bedroom door. She was loud enough that they would know exactly which room to find her in. It was too dark, and Carol couldn't see, but she could hear someone entering the room. She swung the pick right at him. She could feel the pick inter the person, like a spade being shoved into soft, moist earth. She tried to pull the pick back, but it was too hard; it was stuck. The millimetre that she managed to dislodge it by generated a sound that would give her nightmares for life. It was the sound of squishy suction, blood no doubt. It  gave Carol the mental image of the pick lodged in the man’s throat and exiting through the back of his head.

Carol didn't want to wait for the other two to follow. She didn't know how much noise she’d made now, it was as if all her senses had died and all her focus was in that moment of survival. A bomb could have gone off and she wouldn't have noticed. She found her way out of the house. It was pitch black outside, but in the distance, Carol could see street lights.

She started to run toward the street lights as fast as humanly possible. If she couldn't see anything, surely they couldn't see her. About four hundred metres from the road, Carol stepped into a hole and lost her footing, sending her tumbling forward. As fast as she went down, she was up and running again. She wondered if she’d hurt herself, but perhaps could not feel it with the adrenaline pumping through her body.

When Carol reached the road, she saw a set of car lights coming toward her. Without hesitation, Carol ran into the middle of the road and started doing star jumps to catch the driver’s attention. The car came to a screeching halt in front of her. Blinded by the car’s headlights, Carol feared that one of the two men might be right behind her. She started to run toward the passenger door. Carol hopped in; “DRIVE! DRIVE! DRIVE!” She shouted. The driver didn’t react. Carol turned to look at him so that she could urge him to drive once more, only, when she saw him, all words failed her.


Jacob started the car, did a u-turn, and headed back toward the house.